So this is it!
I am soon going to get picked up by my mum and off to the hairdressers where my bridesmaid will be waiting to hold my hand! I am so nervous but still all giddy and i cant stop smiling!!!
I think i havent forgotten anything! Relax...relax...relax...

You know what? It is an amazing wonderful day out there. Sun and blue sky, not a cloud in sight. What more could you ask for, your husband to be, family, friends and a cool summer breeze in the old oaktrees as we say I Do to each other. Life doesnt get much better does it...

Currently listening to Julio Iglesias - La Paloma
Im listening to Julio again, am i insane???

Well never mind that, we are soon going out to the market in town. Its a 4 day event ending on saturday. There was cruising last night with big beautiful american cars, today im not sure what there will be. But we are going in to have a look. Besides it is lovely weather for it.

Countdown to the Big Day on saturday has begun! We went out to Rankhyttan today to hand over the placecards we made and also the order of seating. And we got to see what rooms they had to offer us since the bridalsuit was taken and i was disappointed at the new Spa section room so we settled for a bigger room in the estate itself. With or without ghosts that is were we will be sleeping. Im sure it will be alright. Just have to make sure we get everything with us since it is a bit out of the way and you just cant nip back if you forgot something at the last minute. As usuall im sure i will be in charge of getting everything togheter, even though James does help, he can be a bit neurotic when it comes to tickets and passports. He keeps on checking them and so on. Whenever we travel togheter i let him check them once and then keep them with me instead of handing them over to him since i know he will be checking them every ten minutes or so just to make sure they stll say what they did ten minutes ago. I never forget the first time we travelled togheter and we were standing in the check in line and i jokely said i dont have the passports, dont you? The frantic look on his face combined with the staring eyes were amusing for a second before i felt sorry for him and fished the importent documents out of my pocket. He actually thought i had forgotten them! Am i evil? ;o)

The timetable for the day is in line, will check with the florists on friday though to make sure it is all ok. Everything else can go wrong as long as i have the dress and flowers. Dinner and bowling is booked for friday night for James family. It seems that some of the girls from work might come over on friday so i might just stay for dinner but ask if Lotta could come pick me up before the bowling. Weather wise they have promised a very nice and sunny day, so fingers crossed...!

Something weird has happend to our VCR. It wont start up after i pulled the plug earlier today since they promised thunder and i was going to work. Update: it will start up when i plug it in the bedroom socket but can i be bothered to put it in with the tv and dvd and decoder tonight? Naaah, i'll watch a dvd insted, wonder if it will be Lord of the Rings... ;o)

I can feel the sweet tingle of panic creeping up my back. Why is that you might wonder? Well in just one weeks time now im going to become Mrs James Last and i am sweating under the pressure that we (me) have got everything organized! Did we forget something, did we book everything, not to mention our trip to Prague the day after! Maybe thats why i have stomache flu. Was home sick yesterday and feel pretty sorry for myself today so im home now as well. Well maybe better i got it this weekend and not the next huh? And it doesnt help that James has slumped into a depression like state, nothings fun and he has no energy and EVERYTHING is boring!! HELP ME!

Play it again Tigs! Raul Malo - I said i love you

I cant help it, this song gets me in a great mood each time i listen to it! And now you have to excuse me, im going to go rumba with James! ;o)

So, Tom, Dick and Harry have arrived. Dont ask me why but James thought they were suitable names for our new pets. They are females though so they might get offended if i call them by their names in public. Never mind that, what are they you might ask, they are fish. Siamese fighting fish to be more accurate. I have a photo to show you how the species look like.

The fish on the left is a female and the more flamboyant one is a male. Our three ickle females are red, white and blue....
We got them from Marie at work, she is going to move to England in september so instead of trying to kill them off she asked if we were interested in taking them on, all she asked for the tank, fishfood and fishes were a bag of my home made buns. I thought i'd made a good deal! Once i cleaned the tank out and rearranged the stones and added a few bigger ones as caves and stuff i let the fishes back in, they were being held in a little shrimpsallad container while i was mucking about. I think they liked it. Its very hard to tell you know. At least they ate all the fishfood i dropped in afterwards. If you have any better suggestions of names for them we gladly take them in the comments section :o)

What can i say, its been a WONDERFUL day. After James had done half of his leaflet round i thought it would be nice to get away and just do nothing, think of nothing but what shapes the clouds could be while laying on a blanket with James' stomach as my pillow. I needed to unwind a LOT. So after i quickly got a chicken sallad togheter and we packed some lovely chocolate cake as dessert we went off on our bikes. Town was full of people laying around in droves on every available lawn. Or sitting in cafes drinking cold beer or eating a melting icecream in the shade. But we didnt want to stay in the too warm town so we biked out to the lake. And we were very surprised to see that no one was at the swimingplace in Källviken. We had it all to ourselves, it was just us, the ducks, bright sun and a warm breeze to keep us comfortable. Talk about perfect sunday...

If you ever feel bored go and try this one out, i guarentee that you will fell very artistic after a while!

Me, i just managed to get totaly sucked into doing ickle men and women...lol!

Currently listening to A*Teens - A perfect match
I got some new music in the post this morning which i am listening to right now. There are quite alot of new music i would like to listen more to. Thank gods for Kazaa i'll tell you. Free music and if you dont like it just delete it!

Its been a very productive day off. I vacumed a bit this morning, went to grans to do her shopping, managed to clean out her fridge a bit as well. Anyone know when porridge grows legs and walks by itself? I think i have a rough idea by now... Also went to Borlänge with mum to renew her visa and to see if we could find some shoes. Oh no shopping with mum i thought but it all turned out very good. Both me and her found some new shoes. Just have to wear them a bit now before the Big Day. I also found a nice top that my mum 'helped' me buy, as thanks i bought her a fika at Almas cafe. And when i got home the Rankhyttan people phoned up and gave me an estimate, more over here. And a bit later Marie phoned up and asked if it was alright for her and Malin to come over for a fika which it of course was. They came and had bought us a housewarming present, a lovely lantern from my favorite shop (Indiska). I was surprised to say the least. We had some cold juice and buns and chattered away happily in the kitchen untill Malin had to get going home before her bf reported her missing, he wanted his dinner i presume ;)

And the rest of the evening i've spent listening to music. Im surprised at how little i listen to now a days. At one time in my life i couldnt live without music on. But the last few years have been very quiet. Not that i've stopped completly but it became rare to put a cd on just to sit and listen to it. Btw i think Sugababes are my new favorites.

Currently listening to Celine Dion - I drove all night

Im surprised of how much this song reminds me of when i was younger. Swedish summernights can be magical and so bittersweet if you dont have anyone you can cuddle up with... Always in springtime i get this heartache about lost love, puppy love if you like. Do you remember your first crush? I do, it was the class sweetheart who everybody just forgave when he had done anything naughty. They just took one glance at his puppydog blue eyes and shiny white grin and everything was forgotten. I did ask if he wanted to be my boyfrind once in second grade and he agreed! For a week i was in heaven but then some other girl got the courage to ask him and he said yes to her!
Why do i think of this now? Because it was that same song i had on the stereo years ago, but with Cyndi Lauper singing it, when reading the morning paper and in an article read about some young guy being killed in a bike-car accident the night before. And then the next moment the phone rang and it was one of my old schoolfriends who rang to say he had died, that it was him they were writing about.... I never forget that moment or that song...

The weekend...

Its a working weekend for me though, maybe thats why the sun is shining and it is pretty darn HOT outside! It is just not fair is it. Because i can bet you anything that next weekend when i am off from work there will be rain and hail and other unpleasent things flying around outside!
At least i didnt need to get up at 5.30 on my weekend off to go to work and do a stocktake now did i James... ;o)
Sulk over.. am feeling much better now.

In other news? Not much really, my life at the moment is at a standstill. Wedding ahead, but not so close yet to make everything spring into action. It is a bit sad that the only interesting thing happening is when i have a small argument with James over what we are going to eat for dinner. Silly but i suppose you grasp after anything that could turn the temperature up a notch into INTERESTING when the rest of your life just seems plain and dull.
Is it a bad sign wen you look at a desk and just have this urge to sweep all the crap that is on it into a box and trow it away because nothing gets put away anyway? Or it might just be the hormones...

Then Almitra spoke again and said, "And what of Marriage, master?"
And he answered saying:
You were born together, and together you shall be forevermore.
You shall be together when white wings of death scatter your days.
Aye, you shall be together even in the silent memory of God.
But let there be spaces in your togetherness,
And let the winds of the heavens dance between you.
Love one another but make not a bond of love:
Let it rather be a moving sea between the shores of your souls.
Fill each other's cup but drink not from one cup.
Give one another of your bread but eat not from the same loaf.
Sing and dance together and be joyous, but let each one of you be alone,
Even as the strings of a lute are alone though they quiver with the same music.
Give your hearts, but not into each other's keeping.
For only the hand of Life can contain your hearts.
And stand together, yet not too near together:
For the pillars of the temple stand apart,
And the oak tree and the cypress grow not in each other's shadow.

Guess who :)

Oh its been a boring week. And its not finished yet either! And as the days just seem to dwindle away our wedding is getting closer and closer and there will be lots of stuff to be managed starting next week i think. But right now its just standing still... could it be the calm before the storm i wonder....

James ran the Spring i Benen race yesterday. He finished in the middle somewhere of what i could make out which is very good i think. He also got a medal and i took some little videoclips of him running on our digicamera, go and have a look. See if you can spot the Running Blue... :)

After the race we went to Rusta, a discount shop, and bought a fold away table to hang on our balcony and two folding chairs in akacia wood. Bargain really considering it is solid wood.

In the afternoon Rosie and Per came by for some swedish 'fika'. Fika is when having coffe or tea with cakes, buns, sandwiches anything really that you can munch to while chatting, i think it is an excellent word and havent come across anything similare in english. We chatted away and watched a film while it was snowstorming outside! So no game of Kubb or boule yesterday either. Btw it did come 5 cm of snow and it stayed untill about now when the sun has come out and is melting it all away.

We walked into town to see my gran and walked back as well this morning. Thought it might do my back some good since it is hurting like buggery right now. Dont know if i have pulled a muscle or something when lifting stuff at work last week, something is getting caught at times and it really hurts like....! Right now im sitting with a hot waterbottle wedged between the chair and my back when typing this. Any suggestions to what you can do? We might go for another slow walk later since that seems to help me to relax and stop tensing up so much. If it is as bad as today tomorrow morning im not going to work. Oh the joy of telling my boss that, anyway i'll do whatever he wants me to do if that means going to see the so called 'company doctors' he has a contract with and get a certificate that yes i have a poorly back and can stay home so he dont think im faking it. In any case im going to phone up my chiropractor and ask if he got a time for me to see him. He might be able to help.

In other news, i went shopping for weddingclothes with my mum on wednesday ...... And it is only a true miracle i came back without a MAJOR falling out between my mum and me! Sigh, this is a woman who says she cant find anything to wear in a shop FULL of beautiful and various clothes styles. One who takes one look, not even that, and says oh no she cant wear that. It would help to try them on you know, it might surprise her once in a while....
Anyway it got so bad she was saying something along the lines that she might as well not come to the wedding when i was getting a bit frustrated with her reluctance to even try some suggestions out! Thank the gods that i was in a good(ish) mood, any other day i would have told her that that was just fine and if it was so much trouble for her to find something to wear she might not as well make an effort and stay at home, ending with me stomping off in a mood and probably crying as well. Ok for not wanting to wear a dress since she is convinced she doesnt suit in one, and alright i suppose you have to be able to wear it afterwards as well. But please, no black trousers and white blouse as she thought of buying. Am i being unreasonable?
Anyway, after much grumping she tried out a lovely light blue skirt with a subtle floral print and a nice middle blue blouse as i told her i prefered to see her in a skirt since she refused blankly to try out some lovely summer dresses i showed her, and yes she would have looked fab in them dont care what she thinks. So that is now sorted and i remember why i never go clothes shopping with my mum, its just too emotional to try to convice a stubborn missus No that she could wear anything else then her usuall attire.
I still love my mum, she is just very trying sometimes....!

Currently listening to Raul Malo - I Said I Love You

Now there is a reason to watch Parky, you stumble over someone like Raul Malo playing a dancy happy song. Think Latino Lover in english... :o))
Weird i know but it works, it makes me want to jump to my feet and pull James up out of bed(he is napping) for a funky latino rumba!

I would offer it to you as part of the Divine Tigs Jukebox but how do you write the code so i works? We got enough space to place a mp3 but how do you link it right. Help?

What have i been doing all day today you wonder? Well even if you dont wonder i will tell you, so shut up and pay attention! ;o)

Because today i am so proud of myself. I sat down and sewed my curtains that i have been shuffling from one side of the apartment to the other for ages it feels like. Finaly today i felt like doing something about them. It helped that it was pouring down with rain outside and i didnt have anything else to do for the rest of the afternoon with all the re-potting of my seedling plants done and dinner out of the way as well. I had bought these second hand curtains for over a month agao thinking they might fit nicely in the bedroom, but since they were a bit on the short side i decided against it. But i couldnt just trow them away again so i pondered a bit about what to do with them. Then i saw these other curtains that were half white and half pattern in the Elephant shop (Indiska to all swedes, but i rather use James' renaming of it) and thought i could do that with mine! So off i went and bought some nice white material and laid it all out to see if i got any inspiration from it. But oh no i didnt so it all went into the guestroom, waiting for the inspiration to show itself. So today i did the lot of them. Even managed to remind James that he had a run to do today, not listening to his whine about it raining outside i managed to get him up and out doing his 10k run in the rain (i smirked as he went past the window but im sure he didnt see me.. ;o) )

Of course there is a picture!

I'll write more about Valborg tomorrow because i need my sleep, well at least the 5 hours i get since im working early tomorrow doing the bread....But im not sleepy! I know, i'll hyptonize myself into getting sleepy.

You are getting very sleepy.. Very sleepy... Your eyes cant stay open.... You have an urge to count sheeeeeep...Sleepyzzzzzzz...zzzleeepy...zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.....